One year ago today....

I can't believe a year ago today we found out we were pregnant. I remember like it was yesterday. It was shortly after I returned from my lunch hour at work when I received a phone call from the doctor's office. When the lady said, "Congratulations Tiffany, your pregnant!" I was first shocked and then overwhelmed, thinking, oh my god, am I ready for this? After many negative at home and blood tests, I was not prepared for what she had just told me. Of course I was at work and in front of all my coworkers and boss bawling on the phone and feeling sick to my stomach when I blurted out I was pregnant. I wanted to call Mark at work, but wanted to see his face and reaction when I told him. I still wish I could have controlled my emotions so he would have been the first person I told, but I was a wreck! Of course it had to be a Monday night when I work till 8 pm. Needless to say it was a long day. I pondered on how I was going to tell him. I had a plan and kept replaying it in my head how I wanted to tell him, but on the way home I kept thing about it and tears would just well up in my eyes. I knew I would not be able to play it off so cool and collect. I think he knew when I walked into the house that something was was different. Of course, I just blurted out again that I was pregnant and all Mark could say was, this is awesome, this is awesome!! I can still hear it in my head and feel his strong hug. I look back at my pregnancy, which I really don't miss right now, and realize it wasn't that bad. At first the nausea stunk, the second trimester was full of worries. Was I going to be a good parent? Were we ready for this? What have I done? Is the baby going to be healthy? Is my body ever going to be the same? The third trimester I was just ready to have her. I felt like a huge swollen whale that could not even get out of bed!

I love her so much and could not have asked for a better baby girl and husband. I really do love my life and feel very blessed everyday. I wouldn't change a thing.

I love this picture.....It really was the first time I met the miracle I carried for nine months. She knew my voice right away. I remember wanting to look at her hair, fingers and toes. I still can't believe I had a baby with hair! Since I had to have an emergency c-section and could not wear my glasses, I really could not see her when Mark put her to my face. Then I had to recover in a room for two hours after that. I guess I waited nine months, I could wait two more hours! I will never forget it! She is my best achievement. I love you Madison.